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[Nov. 10th, 2009|01:07 am] |
I'm really not looking forward to snow. I like for it to snow on Christmas Eve and Christmas and that's it. Then the arctic and the polar bears can have it back. I am, however, determined to go sledding at least once this year, since I haven't been in a super long time. Making snowmen is always fun, too. And I should see about getting tickets for the Rockettes and that Greenfield Village thing going on.
I have so much to do around this time of year. I started a little bit of Christmas shopping. I was thinking about making some gifts, though. I want to take a trip out to the Dixieland Flea Market to see if there are some things I can use out there. I wanna bake a ton of cookies and stuff like I did last year. I just love having them around the house and the smell of them. Mmmm. I love Christmas! I can't wait until Andrew and I have our own house to decorate. Hopefully next year. :)
I'm 5 months away from being done with school. Can you believe it? I can't. Its flown by and taken forever all at the same time. I can't wait to be working in a real salon! There are some places I have in mind. Some in Ann Arbor, some in Birmingham. I dunno, we'll see. Either way, show me the money.
Oh, and randomly Ron White, the comedian that travels with Jeff Foxworthy and all them, came into Aveda Friday night to get an h-cut. lol He was super nice! He even gave the girl that cut his hair two free tickets to his show that night.
Still working all the time and still spending my weekends with baby. You know how it is. lol
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| come little children i'll take thee away, into a land of enchantment |
[Oct. 23rd, 2009|03:44 pm] |
long time no post.
been up to the same shit. work, school, work, school. throw in a little bit of Baby who owns my heart and that's my life in a nut shell.
i love fall. it's so nice to finally have one. usually it's summer to winter and nothing in between. i can't wait to carve pumpkins this weekend. PUMPKIN SEEDS! mmmmm
uhmmm....i also want to try and go to the halloween thing they have going on at Greenfield Village, but who knows, we're all trying to go to cedar point, too. not enough time in the day.
i feel like i'm losing touch with my friends. what the hell is going on? i haven't seen anyone in months. fuck work. fuck school.
tiffany o'brien, you have inspired me BACK into vegetarianism....and one day....maybe i will merge into veganism. lol
anyways, how are you guys?
(tofurkey day is right around the corner!!! mmmmmm) |
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[Oct. 8th, 2009|12:38 am] |
i am so exhausted!!!!
this schedule is REALLY starting to wear on me. losing weight, no appetite or time to eat, no social life, no time with baby, no time for homework, no time for anything, really.
ugh. i just have to wait until May and it will all be worth it. then i'm taking a nice long vacation. full of sleep and fruity drinks and a hammock. and books. lots and lots of good books.
bring me to May.
it smells delicious outside. i love that you can taste fall in the air. apples and pumpkins and leaves. mmmm. perfect. |
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[Sep. 24th, 2009|03:37 pm] |
why does it still piss me off?
is it because i know in my heart that somewhere along the lines, someone knows the fucking truth and someone is fucking lying to me.
and i know something happened that no one is telling me about. |
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[Sep. 9th, 2009|02:07 pm] |
brief overview of the past month of my life:
wake up: 5:30am
work: 7-3:30
school: 5-10
lately, been sharing a car with drew so i wait for him to get outta work until 12:30, which means sleeping in the car in the parking lot. hahaha
home at 1 sleeping until 5:30am.
repeat.
weekends are spent with the love of my life doing what we do best. :)
i love work, i love school, but more importantly, i love andrew.
hope everyone is doing well! |
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[Jul. 21st, 2009|03:47 pm] |
basically,
you know how i do.
heh.
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[Jun. 30th, 2009|04:43 pm] |
p.s. i just spent some time reading some of my old entries...and i just gotta say...
i love ME.
hahaha
seriously though, i really, really do.
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[Jun. 30th, 2009|03:46 pm] |
people still have the ability to shock the hell out of me.
i had to do two facials today. loooong day followed by a looooong night.
i need a vacation the size of a cruise ship. and all you can drink margaritas.
planet fitness, here i come. |
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[Jun. 26th, 2009|12:34 am] |
www.glidden.com is giving away free quarts of paint until July 2nd. So, I ordered my quart of Tiffany Blue. I'm excited to paint my room!!!
In other news...it's fucking sweltering in my house. My mom needs to get the fucking air fixed.
dang
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[Jun. 23rd, 2009|12:59 pm] |
American Psycho is one of the funniest books I've ever read.
heh |
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| Jason. |
[Jun. 20th, 2009|03:55 pm] |
I know that most of you claim to be agnostic or whatever, but lately I've been thinking a lot about religion. It's impossible to think that someone as wonderful as my brother just ceased to exist; that he died and that was it. If anyone deserved more than this world has to offer, it was him. I feel like it has only been recently that I've actually been able to really grieve for the loss of my brother. Why? I don't know. Perhaps because I was too young, the magnitude of what happened didn't really hit me until now. Now, I feel the loss of him as if it were yesterday. It confuses even me, but for a while now, I have been looking for ways to mourn appropriately.
I know I'm doing a disservice to myself and those around me by holding it back and holding it in. He was a part of my life, he did exist, and it's hard for me to not be angry about it. I don't remember his favorite cereal, what color his toothbrush was, if he was ticklish, his favorite popsicle flavor, or what his best subject in school was...but other people in my life got to experience that. They spent time with him that I never had a chance to. And it's hard for me to get past the bitterness and the jealousy I feel towards them.
We go on as if he never existed instead of celebrating him. His name was taboo in my house for so long and it breaks my heart to think of him seeing us this way. How ashamed I am of our behavior.
I suppose the first step is to forgive myself. And my family.
And live today, and every day, in celebration.
But now that he is dead, why should I fast? Can I bring him back again? I shall go to him, but he will not return to me. [2 Samuel 12:23]
The righteous perish, and no one ponders it in his heart; devout men are taken away, and no one understands that the righteous are taken away to be spared from evil. [Isaiah 57:1]
Brothers, we do not want you to be ignorant about those who fall asleep, or to grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope. We believe that Jesus died and rose again and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him. According to the Lord's own word, we tell you that we who are still alive, who are left till the coming of the Lord, will certainly not precede those who have fallen asleep. For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever. Therefore encourage each other with these words. [1 Thessolonians 4:13-18]
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[Jun. 13th, 2009|01:39 am] |
I just had the most wonderfully real dream about Jason. It was like somehow he just showed up and was a part of my family again. And I remember holding him for hours and crying and telling him that I had been so sad because I never got to know him and he never got to know me. And that I never got to call him "brother" or touch him or hug him or anything. And he just smiled and said, "I know and I'm so sorry, but I'm here now, so let's talk and you can tell me everything."
So I walked him through our house and told him about the past twenty years of my life. And he would laugh and I remember what his smile looked like and the way his smelled and the way his skin felt.
And in my dream, time went by. And we had gotten almost used to him being there. And it was the best thing that had ever happened to me. To anyone in my family.
But then he started getting sick and I knew that he was going to be leaving us again. And I tried to take care of him because I wanted him to stay forever. But he kept telling me not to worry. It was like he knew that it would happen and he was expecting it.
Before he could leave I woke myself up crying.
He'll be 34 on Monday.
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[Jun. 10th, 2009|05:43 am] |
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Sara and I started our gym regiment yesterday. We go to Planet Fitness and it is AMAZING. They have like twenty machines in an assembly line sort of thing and you do each of them and when you're finished, you've had a total body work out. It's awesome. It takes all the guess work out of what you should/need to do. Not to mention they have soooooo many machines of every different variety with huge TVs you can watch. They have this sound thing on every machine that you plug your headphones into and you decide which TV you want to tune into. It's crazy! I love it there. Plus it's super cheap and right by school. Perfect!
I think we're gonna go buy some yoga or pilates dvds tonight so that we can start doing those in the mornings. I can't wait until I get used to all this again and going to the gym will be second nature. I hate screwing up my routines.
This summer has got to be better than last summer. Last summer...I did absolutely nothing. lol
My birthday is June 27th, so you all better be ready to have a party or some shit. All I know, is I want drinks and a bbq. Veggie shish-kabobs sound delicious! MMMMmm.
School is still going fabulously. Too bad it comes with drama that's all its own. lol Oh drama, will you ever grow tired of me?
I need to pick back up on my list of 1001 books. I'm too busy slacking!!! =(
I have made a life list, by the way. You know...a sort of "bucket list", I guess. I add more and more each day, and I'm so excited for the moment in which I get to cross something off. It has some of the dumbest things on there...but every word of it means something to me. lol
I need to get back to vegetarianism. I feel like CRAP when I eat meat. Physically and mentally. (and maybe even emotionally, too.)
Andrew and I have orientation for jobs on Thursday at 1PM. You sit all day scanning stuff, supposedly. For $9.50/hr. I'll take it! lol We just need to start saving money for a freakin' wedding and a house. (And maybe babies someday soon.) Plus, I need to pay of the rest of my CCs and get my shit taken care of. UGH. So much on my mindddd.
Douglas J, here I come.
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[May. 29th, 2009|03:46 am] |
it has been a very long month.
so i've been out on the salon floor for about a week. i love it. you meet the most interesting people. plus, i haven't fucked up anyone's hair yet, which is DEFINITELY a good thing. lol we have class every thursday, which is nice. our educator is fantastic and i'm learning tons from her. my first day out on the floor was soooooo scary, and i had an educator named john, who i had never even met before, as my coach. come to find out, john is the most intelligent and talented educator in that fucking building! lol i learned more from him on my first day out than i did my entire 15 weeks in intro. lol amazing.
andrew and i have never been better.
either way....i'm in love and i'm happy. what more could i ask for? |
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[May. 9th, 2009|03:48 pm] |
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Well, it's official!!!! I am now an Advanced I student at Douglas J!!!!! I am so excited. I finished my Intro course with a 96%! I start out on the floor on the 13th rather than the 15th. My very first guest/service is a manicure. !!!!!!!! It's going to be so much fun to be out on the floor. It's so chaotic and it's so much work, but it will be amazing. I can't wait to work in a real salon.
Mother's Day is Sunday, and I'm pretty sure I know what I'm doing for my mom. I got her a card from AVEDA that waives the price of ANY service she wants. That's up to a $400 value! The catch is, she has to book the appointment with ME. hahaha Oh well, increases my numbers. I'll make her buy lots of products and reschedule so my pre-booking goes up. lol Other than that, I gave her a complete pedicure the other day and I'll probably make her breakfast and she wants mimosas. Psh.
Bad thing about this year is that Mother's Day falls on the anniversary of my brother's death. That's a hard day for everyone, especially my mom. As usual, we're going to take a trip out to the cemetery and clean up his gravestone for the summertime. One day, when I have some money, I am going to replace that one with a really amazing one that he deserves. If it's the last thing I do, it will happen.
I went and put air in my bike tires the other day and I have yet to take it out. I want to get a basket for it so I can go on picnics and stuff. Where the hell do you buy a bike basket? lol I want a white one. lol So...if you find one...lemme know.
The weather is beautiful. Lets hit the beach. |
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[Apr. 30th, 2009|02:56 am] |
haven't used this thing in a while...figured i would let everyone know what i have been up to lately.
school is phenomenal. i love every second of it. i officially go out on to the floor May 15th! i am so excited! you all need to come book appointments with me! =) i'm so nervous. next week is our finals for intro, our state board intro preps, and our competition. i've been super busy practicing everything, studying, making flash cards, buying everything i need for state boards...etc etc etc. it's been fantastic.
we've also been doing tons of stuff at school for earth month. it's AMAZING! i love being a part of it. we go pick up trash a lot, we've been doing more recycling than ever (even though we recycle everyday regardless), the owners sons lived on the roof for a few days trying to collect money for the Alliance for the Great Lakes (non -profit that helps to clean the waters of the great lakes), collecting plastic caps (because even if you do recycle plastic bottles, they throw the caps away because it's too difficult to reuse them) because AVEDA is one of the only companies that reuses any kind of plastic cap to make new caps for their products, etc. We collected a TON of money. It's been an awesome month to say the least.
Naturally, there is a TON of drama in my class and it's all irritating, but it doesn't take away from the fact that I'm totally obsessed with everything AVEDA. I love being there. It feels like home to me. I am completely nervous to go out on the floor, but I will be spending a week shadowing an advanced student so that I can get a feel for what it's like on the salon floor. I can't wait!!!
Prepping for State Boards is so time consuming, but I'm glad they take the time to walk us through it like 4 times before we leave school. A girl I know that went to AVEDA said that when she took her state boards you could literally look around the room and tell immediately which students went to AVEDA and which students didn't. People didn't know what the hell they were doing...they were totally unprepared, and some were even asked to leave. I am just glad that AVEDA is such an amazing school.
I think after I'm done at AVEDA, i might look into becoming an educator there...because I love it so much. I know that I definitely want to stay with the company and the product line. It's all wonderful. But I don't know. I might go work at the exchange for like a year just so I can work behind the chair for a bit and get more experience before jumping RIGHT into educating.
When it comes to JOBS, my friend Sara from school said she can get me a job at Seva in Ann Arbor...it's a vegetarian restaurant like 5 minutes from school. I am super excited because she banks there as a server and that's exactly what I need. Short hours and big money. =) I'm happy about that.
Other than that, I hang out with my baby love, friends, go to the bar....whatev. I can't wait for summer.
***SAVE THE DATE!!!!!!!!!!!!! JUNE 27TH IS MY 3RD 21ST BIRTHDAY AND I AM HAVING A HUGE BEACH BLOW OUT!!! BIG THING OF JUNGLE JUICE, TONS OF FOOD TO BBQ, AND LOTS OF PPL (HOPEFULLY YOU LAMES!) YOU ALL BETTER BE THERE! OR I WILL KILL YOUU! =)
Anyways, there's my life...in a nutshell.
LOVE YOU ALL! |
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[Apr. 7th, 2009|11:22 am] |
Dear Snow,
I hate your stinkin' guts. You make me vomit. You are the scuuuuuuuuum between my toes.
Love,
Renee
I can feel summer in my bones. And I refuse to believe that this won't be a great one. There is so much I want to do and accomplish. I mean, I'll still be in school, but that's okay. I get out at ten, so that's no big deal. I miss the nights we stayed up till six a.m. doing nothing and everything at the same time. I need that now. Everyone is slipping away. Just because we all have a lot going on doesn't mean we can work each other in. My friends are my life, so I think it's important that I make room for them in my every day. I hope they can do the same in return.
I want to spend this summer in love. In love with Andrew, with my school, with my friends...with everything.
I want to do so much and I want everyone to do it with me. (That's what she said.)
Camping
Zoo
Bonfires
Museums
Wave Pool
BBQs
Picnics
Bike Rides
Cedar Point
Beach Houses
Margaritas
Sleepless nights
Arthur's
Good music
Come on guys, let's do this. |
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[Feb. 21st, 2009|09:18 pm] |
i want to go to the DIA. and the Henry Ford.
who wants to join me? |
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| afternoon delight |
[Feb. 20th, 2009|06:08 pm] |
model day at school was yesterday. it was amazing. my very first haircut on a human head that i was actually TRAINED to do. lol it was awesome. renee came in for me and let me do a one length on her. she had loads of layers, so i just did a trim. it still looks super cute. i was definitely excited because my educator didn't have to fix not one single thing on her head. i loved every second of it. =) needless to say, school is going swimmingly. and i am one of very very few that have yet to miss a single second of class. i am more proud of myself than words can possibly express.
i quit my job. it sucked and i was getting sick of being taken advantage of and treated like shit. it was turning me into someone i didn't even recognize anymore. i was mean to everyone, i picked stupid fights with people, i was unhappy all the time, i cried whenever i had to go into work. i just gave up. i give 1000% at everything i do, and it killed me to give up on something. i was late everyday and didn't give a shit. i sat there and just did my homework all fucking day. i hated it and i was absolutely miserable. i mean, i am worried about bills now, but at least i can look in the mirror again.
now i have to work on the physical me. emotional me is almost there. |
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[Jan. 30th, 2009|12:30 pm] |
ohhh lj land, where have i been?
i started school. what can i say? i love every single second of it. i have never been so happy, so excited to go to school in my entire life. this is what it's supposed to feel like. i am so happy with my life right now that i want to put this on pause and just bask in it. i can't remember the last time i felt like this. everything is almost perfect.
everyone in my class is pretty much amazing. all awesome. i'm excited about that. i'm glad that my expectations were wrong. my only worry is having to go out on the salon floor and start working on guests. i'm terrified! what if i mess up?!?! lol ohhhhh man. i dunno. haha we learn our first haircut next week. (on a mannequin) then i have to bring in someone for my model day and do the haircut on them. i'm reaaaaaaally excited. i learned hand massages a few days ago, so now everyone i know asks me for one. haha
i have been early for class every single day. and that's saying something. you all know me. i am an eternal procrastinator. nope. not this time. i actually count down the minutes that i get to be at school. i love the atmosphere, the people, the smells. it's all amazing. if i could be there 24/7, i would. i average about 4 hours of sleep a night, but i don't even care. by friday i was dead on my feet, but oh well. i will spend the next 14 months doing it all over again. =)
i'm so glad i chose AVEDA. we're learning about the behind the scenes and all of AVEDA's missions, goals, values, etc. and i gotta say, i've never heard of another company that was so ecologically concerned. all of the product containers are made from 100% post-consumer recycled material, the ink printed on everything they make is 100% soy based and non-toxic. the product itself is 100% organic. they don't buy their ingredients from big to-do companies, but from local farmers, and indigenous people and small tribes. it provides local farmers with the money they need to continue sustainable farming and for indigenous tribes to bring education and modern health care to their land. it's just amazing what this company does. i feel very fortunate to be a part of it.
there just isn't enough i can say about it. i love the school, the people, everything i'm learning...i love it all. and i couldn't be happier.
i finally feel like today is the first day of the rest of my life. |
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